Monday, March 8, 2010
Missing Mom
Today is the anniversary of my mom's death. I guess living away from my family I tend to think about these things more than usual. It's been a long time she's been gone, yet I can remember that day so clearly. You never get over losing your mom. You just deal with it. So much time has passed... it seems like a lifetime ago. I can't really imagine how she would fit into my life now or how different my life would be if she hadn't died. There is no way to know. I'd give just about anything to have her back but that isn't living in reality. I just hope that someday I get to see her again. She was absolutely the best mom. I say that knowing all the flaws and the occasional fights. I say that because she loved me so perfectly, even when I was an idiot and took for granted that our time together would end up being so short. The bond between a mother and son is sacred. I have the most wonderful memories of her. I have the most intense pain when I think of her illness and the day she died. But it's the wonderful times I try to focus on. Because my childhood and life now would not be anywhere near as good had I not had nineteen years with her. I love you and I miss you mom.
