Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Connor!
Since my little hiatus I got to go home for a visit and meet and spend time with my little 7 week-old (at the time) nephew, Connor. He is just the cutest, most precious little thing. It was amazing to get to feed him a bottle and have him sleep in my arms for hours a time. Really made me yearn for one of my own honestly, though I also got a true glimpse at the shear time and work involved in taking care of a baby. It's no wonder so many kids grow up to become messed up adults. If there are reckless, selfish young young people having kids because they are too lazy to use birth control I just can't imagine how they give proper attention to their babies. It's a constant job. But I also can't think of anything more rewarding either.
Not being able to just create a life with the person you love is probably the cruelest thing about being gay. It's frutrating that some stupid, immature girl can get herself knocked up and have a baby and two people who love eachother and would shower a baby with love and attention have to pay tens of thousands of dollars just to adopt one. I guess no one said life was fair!
It really must be an amazing gift to see yourself in a sweet little baby. To know you have this life you get to have a hand in raising and shaping. I'd love to have that opportunity one day. Just don't really see how it's gonna happen at the moment. Anyway, it's cool to at least have this little guy around, if if he is so far away.
